kablag!

it's the word that's been ringing in my ears, head and..i dunno.

when i went to jake's apartment to do my job which is being a maid, i immediately started cooking. jake loves my omelet and fish nuggets. yeah, he's such a kiddo. yesterday in the afternoon, we just had a blast. well, no we're not YET together *ugh*, but we had a very wonderful conversation. we totally clicked and we were laughing and all... so i got excited the next day when i went to work.

until. . . .

well, i was preparing for his breakfast and i heard

"kablag"

i just saw a woman, wrapped with jake's blanket, with her hand on her head because of the certain fall on the floor. i was stunned, hotness in my head because of anger and oh! god! i didn't know how would i react!

i don't want to tell everything what happened there. ganito nalang. jake introduced me to her, who is hannah, as his maid. after doing my work, i went home since jake asked me too. you know, to have a "private time" with his apartment.

as i was walking in the neighborhood, thoughts kept running in my head. was i really that into him? i mean, the only guy that i have ever loved was of course, my first love who is anton. and the rest, they were all flings. when i'm with jake, there's this unusual sudden rush of feeling inside of me. i mean, i can't describe it, you know. and i started to get teary as i walk. i feel so down and blue and all.. and i called aiko to forget about this. and so i went to party and drink. and danced with this cute guy but apparently he's a pervert so i left him while we were drinking.

anyway. my life.. is so... i can not describe it.

i'm broke. and i think i'm inlove. in love with someone who is sooo out of my reach.. yeah right. dream on!

is this for real?

is this for real?
-nikki [someone who cared to read this blog, i don't know her. she's just one of the bloghoppers]

hell yeah. there are also a lot of times that i ask myself the same question.

but my life is a lot like one of those telenovelas that most people watch.

i feel hopeless.. and as i go on with my life.. i wanna see the light of hope.

model.

i don't want to be too proud or whatever, but i have looks. yeah, mayabang ako pero ayokong magpaka-impokrita. recently, jake's friend, alfred came to visit his apartment. when i opened the door for him. he mistakenly thought that i was a new girlfriend of jake but when i spilled that i am his maid, oh boy, you should see his reaction. it was really funny. jake greeted him and we were laughing. what's funny? oh, that's just nothing. alfred is in advertising and he told me that he might help me to have a better job and that i don't fit being a maid.

well, jake, of course agreed. but he asked to me to still cook for him since he likes my dishes. of course i will, if i won't, i will miss his looks.

that's it for today, and sorry if i am not a good blogger..

till next time.. if i do have readers..

low point

jake or rather my boss went back to his apartment last night and left his effing gf, or should i say his ex gf? hahaha! oh, i'm not with him YET. hahaha! anyway, after cleaning his cool apartment and cook for him [my mom's was a chef so she taught me how to cook, bake or whatever], i went outside with my laptop. you see, kahit na poor ako, may laptop paren na naiwan ni mama. this is the only memory that i have from her [except the pictures] since i sold the house and cars to pay for MY debts [my life has more downs than ups right now]. buti nalang mayaman 'tong bossing ko at wireless ang dsl nia, kaso hanggang garahe lang siempre


something wild but bad happened last night.

wade knew where i work and my job. i was a little bit embarassed but hey? what's wrong with my work? anyway, wade and i used to, you know but not anymore. i mean, not anymore till last night. while we were talking, we lead to.. you know. hay, i slept with him. it's been months since i had, you know. please! no children allowed to read this blog. anyway, i slept with him 2 hours before jake came back so there was no caught-in-the-act-naked thing. when wade has to go, i told him..

me: wade, i won't do that again with you.
wade: i don't think so (laughing)
me: im serious, we should not see each other anymore and you're not that good, you know?
wade: huh? anyway. i have to go, have to meet an investor. bye (and gave mee a peck on my left cheek)

what i feel that i'm at my lowest point of my life. wade made me feel empty that moment. i'm a maid, i have small apartment and i think all he wants with me is sex. i'm good with it, by the way. i'm a bummer.

it's me

since my boss or my "amo" is away from the town with his effing girlfriend, he told me to stay-in in his apartment for a couple of days. and i own his apartment, as of now. let's just pretend ok?

since this is my first post in my new blog, i will introduce myself first.

you might be wondering why yaya-diaries or confession of a yaya. yeah, i'm a maid. a maid with a very generous boss, jake. hottie jake, oh! here i am again, wishing to have this guy. he's out of reach although he confessed to me last month that he hired me because i'm pretty and hot. i won't deny that, i have a good-looking parents. i mean, i used to but i won't get emotional here. anyway, i used to be rich. yeah, filthy rich darling. but when my parents died, they left me nothing but the house. since i am the only daughter and our family doesn't have friends since my dad's a cruel man, i live ALONE. yeah, alone. i live with my ownself. after a few months of healing, i went wild. i partied, slept with cute guys, and do some crazy things. but i don't do drugs my friend, never. so, i lost lots of money, i lost the house and here i am, a maid of a multi-millionare bachelor who is in late 20s. his effing gf is damn lucky.

that's it for now, i have to feed mcrocky, his cuddly dog.
xiao!