kablag!

it's the word that's been ringing in my ears, head and..i dunno.

when i went to jake's apartment to do my job which is being a maid, i immediately started cooking. jake loves my omelet and fish nuggets. yeah, he's such a kiddo. yesterday in the afternoon, we just had a blast. well, no we're not YET together *ugh*, but we had a very wonderful conversation. we totally clicked and we were laughing and all... so i got excited the next day when i went to work.

until. . . .

well, i was preparing for his breakfast and i heard

"kablag"

i just saw a woman, wrapped with jake's blanket, with her hand on her head because of the certain fall on the floor. i was stunned, hotness in my head because of anger and oh! god! i didn't know how would i react!

i don't want to tell everything what happened there. ganito nalang. jake introduced me to her, who is hannah, as his maid. after doing my work, i went home since jake asked me too. you know, to have a "private time" with his apartment.

as i was walking in the neighborhood, thoughts kept running in my head. was i really that into him? i mean, the only guy that i have ever loved was of course, my first love who is anton. and the rest, they were all flings. when i'm with jake, there's this unusual sudden rush of feeling inside of me. i mean, i can't describe it, you know. and i started to get teary as i walk. i feel so down and blue and all.. and i called aiko to forget about this. and so i went to party and drink. and danced with this cute guy but apparently he's a pervert so i left him while we were drinking.

anyway. my life.. is so... i can not describe it.

i'm broke. and i think i'm inlove. in love with someone who is sooo out of my reach.. yeah right. dream on!

is this for real?

is this for real?
-nikki [someone who cared to read this blog, i don't know her. she's just one of the bloghoppers]

hell yeah. there are also a lot of times that i ask myself the same question.

but my life is a lot like one of those telenovelas that most people watch.

i feel hopeless.. and as i go on with my life.. i wanna see the light of hope.

model.

i don't want to be too proud or whatever, but i have looks. yeah, mayabang ako pero ayokong magpaka-impokrita. recently, jake's friend, alfred came to visit his apartment. when i opened the door for him. he mistakenly thought that i was a new girlfriend of jake but when i spilled that i am his maid, oh boy, you should see his reaction. it was really funny. jake greeted him and we were laughing. what's funny? oh, that's just nothing. alfred is in advertising and he told me that he might help me to have a better job and that i don't fit being a maid.

well, jake, of course agreed. but he asked to me to still cook for him since he likes my dishes. of course i will, if i won't, i will miss his looks.

that's it for today, and sorry if i am not a good blogger..

till next time.. if i do have readers..